Tuesday, August 12, 2008

My cloud is black with a good chance of rain...


“It’s okay,” I told my aunt the other night at dinner. “I have bad karma, I’m used to it.”

“What makes you think that,” she asked.

“I just keep having bad things happen to me lately,” I said. “I assume it’s because I did something to somebody somewhere.”

She looks at me and says, “Let me tell you a story…”

I just got back from visiting a friend of mine from college. She is a single mother, who took her daughter to Europe on vacation. While vacationing, someone stole her purse, which had all form of identification (I.D./passport) and money. She had to go to the police and even the American Embassy for help. After pulling teeth she manages to get some money wired to her from America and issues for a new passport.

Then while leaving the airport she puts all of her luggage on one of those carts. You know the big wobbly carts with three wheels that you load up and take in the elevator. Well, she is extra paranoid after her theft experience, so she decides to take it on the escalator instead. All is well until she gets to the bottom of the escalator and the front wheel gets stuck. She goes flying over the cart and all of her luggage landing on her arm. She ends up in the hospital hemorrhaging with blood everywhere.

She is a good strong woman who is now telling me what you said, about having bad karma.

“No,” I said. “That is just some really bad luck.”

“Yeah, I think that sometimes people go through a really hard time and it puts them in this negative mind frame. A state of mind where they start to assume everyone and everything is out to get them.”

“And things always tend to get a whole lot worse before they get any better,” I added.

“From my experience that is true as well,” she said.

The bad can happen to the best of us, I guess. I got to change my mind frame, it’s depressing…

16 comments:

Cunning_Linguist said...

You are the Captain of your own destiny, so they say. Chin up, start marching forward to the beat of that internal drummer. If you don't start the turn around, nobody else will do it for you. ;)

Narm said...

So your saying I don't need to worry about karma and can start splashing people with mud puddles in my car again? Score!

She W0rd Hustlez said...

Yes ma'am; when it rains it pours and it sucks ASS! But your Aunt is right, negativity is just a parasite spreading poison in your own mine. It makes you believe that this is something you deserve, or it's something that won't get better anytime soon. Life is nothing but a big dick fucking us raw, but for some people it feels good. So lube it up and take it for what it is. If you get your mind right, it won't feel so bad after all. Keep your head up girl. I can't stand to read too many more blogs like this written by you!

(vixenchick) said...

Things will get better.

ms.uncensored said...

yeah. a few months back. i went through a really rough time. shit just continued to get worse and worse. i felt like there was no escapin all the sucky shit. i used to believe that it was karma and have all these negative thoughts about it. it wasn't until i really said to myself that I'm not gonna feel sorry for myself anymore and take control of my life that shit started to shape up. dead ass.

so hold ya head hun. and stay positive.

Mista Jaycee said...

Life is cyclical Puddin, the good and bad everybody has thier season! Just make sure you write about the good stuff when it happens and count your blessings individually.
Jaycee

kayellejaye said...

Sounds like you're going through a quarter-life crisis. When I was 25 I was all kinds of depressed. Work, boyfriend, school...

Trust me. It'll get better.

Stew said...

the worst thing you can do is get into a mindset that all the bad stuff in the world is going to happen to you. because most times it will. so what you have to do is fight through the bad times, and remember what the good times feel like so you can take small steps to getting back to a good place.

Lady Cameleon said...
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Lady Cameleon said...

SNAP OUT OF IT SIS!!! You have more control of your situation than you are presenting it to be.....ANd im speaking from experience....Lets go to Puerto Rico like i said....and camping is coming up to....wait are they the same weekend,lol???? Wow anyways bottom line i i need My Ms. P BACK!!! so snap out of it!!!

Maxie said...

I hate it when I can't get out of a funk. Give it some time and I'm sure things will turn around.

That Saddity Chic said...

Glad you wrote this. Totally need some inspiration right now :)

Smitty said...

It could always be worse. that's my motto. As long as I'm alive. It's hard to complain. You'll pull thru! I gotcha back!

c.watson said...

I don't think it's you, its this summer. It is evil, maybe its the area too, I don't know. The suckiness is pervading everything. Maybe we should just hybernate for a couple of months and hope that everything will be better in 2009, well thats my plan. Because I'm mature and deal with my issues.

yes said...

im having the same problem at work, ppl are out to get me for some strange reason

Qucifer said...

talk to me about that shit:

Spike's vet bill: 1200
car breaks down right after 700
a/c chunked the deuce today:315
ANNNNDD I still got the monthly stuff, like,you know 1000 bucks on mortgage and condo!